Feeling optimistic today...
A little background on yours truly....
I'm 26, I work in the oh so enthusiastic world of finance. I've had a really rough cpl of years the past 5 yrs. All of it starting as a chain of events back in 2009 beginning with my scumbags father's arrest...
Tuesday, April 21, 2015
Thursday, April 16, 2015
FUCK SHIT'S CHANGED
FUCK.....
THIS PAST YEAR HAS BEEN ONE HELL OF A FUCKING RIDE....
SHIT HAS DEFINITELY CHANGED.
I STILL DON'T KNOW IF FOR BETTER OR WORSE BUT RIGHT NOW IT'S DEFINITELY BETTER...
I GOT SO MUCH SHIT TO SAY AND NO TIME TO SAY IT...
I JUST DEAL WITH SHIT MOVE ON TO THE NEXT PROBLEM. BUT I HAVE PROMISED MYSELF TO MAKE BLOGGING IF NOT BLOGGING AT LEAST WRITING DOWN THE BAT SHIT CRAY CRAY SHIT THAT GOES DOWN IN MY LIFE ON A DAILY BASIS...
IT'S A PROMISE I'M ACTUALLY INTERESTED IN KEEPING....
HERE WE GO...AGAIN!!
THIS PAST YEAR HAS BEEN ONE HELL OF A FUCKING RIDE....
SHIT HAS DEFINITELY CHANGED.
I STILL DON'T KNOW IF FOR BETTER OR WORSE BUT RIGHT NOW IT'S DEFINITELY BETTER...
I GOT SO MUCH SHIT TO SAY AND NO TIME TO SAY IT...
I JUST DEAL WITH SHIT MOVE ON TO THE NEXT PROBLEM. BUT I HAVE PROMISED MYSELF TO MAKE BLOGGING IF NOT BLOGGING AT LEAST WRITING DOWN THE BAT SHIT CRAY CRAY SHIT THAT GOES DOWN IN MY LIFE ON A DAILY BASIS...
IT'S A PROMISE I'M ACTUALLY INTERESTED IN KEEPING....
HERE WE GO...AGAIN!!
Monday, September 30, 2013
Your Not Strong Enough To Handle Me
I feel like bashing your fucking face in....
You've turned out to be such a disgusting human being, a poor excuse for a man, a failure to society, a child stuck in a grown man's body.
You claim to be grown but you act like a teenager in heat.
You claim to have principles but that has constantly be proven to be a lie.
You claim to be Loyal...Hah what a joke that was you have no idea what the fucking word means, please do yourself a favor and get that tattoo removed it's false advertisement.
I guess what I'm trying to say is......
Good riddance.
Granted I will never regret a single moment in the time we've known each other because then that would mean I didn't love the good times or that i didn't learn my lesson (trust me I did).
And I will never deny that I loved the good times...I mean in reality we've always been a great team, we can relate, we have the same taste, the same air of confidence, the same dreams and ambition and for the past 3 years we've been the best of friends. But somewhere down the line we seemed to have gone down different roads.
At first I thought maybe it's me...maybe it's the fact that I don't give in too much. I'm always so careless,I'm not as affectionate, I'm too guarded, I'm always living in my own little world with my own separate social life...I thought maybe I need to give in more, do more, try harder, be more of a girlfriend. So I did. And guess what...that didn't work either!
So now I can go my way in peace with myself knowing that I'm NOT the problem homie YOU ARE.
Until you mature your way of thinking, until you can be a man and not let what your friends (who aren't even old enough to really be your friends) or social medias "friends" cloud your way of thinking you're never going to be happy and your never going to succeed in a relationship, because your not strong enough to have a mind of your own. Your not strong enough to be a man that doesn't let the social media or trends get to him. Your not strong enough to keep true to your thoughts and believes. Your not strong enough to admit when your wrong.....so your not strong enough to handle me.......
You've turned out to be such a disgusting human being, a poor excuse for a man, a failure to society, a child stuck in a grown man's body.
You claim to be grown but you act like a teenager in heat.
You claim to have principles but that has constantly be proven to be a lie.
You claim to be Loyal...Hah what a joke that was you have no idea what the fucking word means, please do yourself a favor and get that tattoo removed it's false advertisement.
I guess what I'm trying to say is......
Good riddance.
Granted I will never regret a single moment in the time we've known each other because then that would mean I didn't love the good times or that i didn't learn my lesson (trust me I did).
And I will never deny that I loved the good times...I mean in reality we've always been a great team, we can relate, we have the same taste, the same air of confidence, the same dreams and ambition and for the past 3 years we've been the best of friends. But somewhere down the line we seemed to have gone down different roads.
At first I thought maybe it's me...maybe it's the fact that I don't give in too much. I'm always so careless,I'm not as affectionate, I'm too guarded, I'm always living in my own little world with my own separate social life...I thought maybe I need to give in more, do more, try harder, be more of a girlfriend. So I did. And guess what...that didn't work either!
So now I can go my way in peace with myself knowing that I'm NOT the problem homie YOU ARE.
Until you mature your way of thinking, until you can be a man and not let what your friends (who aren't even old enough to really be your friends) or social medias "friends" cloud your way of thinking you're never going to be happy and your never going to succeed in a relationship, because your not strong enough to have a mind of your own. Your not strong enough to be a man that doesn't let the social media or trends get to him. Your not strong enough to keep true to your thoughts and believes. Your not strong enough to admit when your wrong.....so your not strong enough to handle me.......
Wednesday, September 4, 2013
Blog Fail
So I created this blog in hopes that this would be a way of me expressing my emotions...but like everything else I start, I never went through with it. Until now that is....these past 9 months seem like a nightmare I simply can't get away from, FUCK YOU 2013.
Everything feels like a fucking chain of reactions...from loosing loved ones, to loosing myself in dark periods of depression. This year I've felt it all and I've survived it. And although I know it's not all over, and although I know this isn't the last of it....I also know I will be ok.
Everything feels like a fucking chain of reactions...from loosing loved ones, to loosing myself in dark periods of depression. This year I've felt it all and I've survived it. And although I know it's not all over, and although I know this isn't the last of it....I also know I will be ok.
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